In which I explain my absence using overblown language

July 19th, 2010

This seems like it should be the time I’d be pushing out frequent updates to the three or four of you dedicated readers. Instead, I have temporarily deserted you and experienced the last whirlwind month without you in my front pocket. What a terrible, negligent virtual pal I have been. I have been ensconced in velvet for the past few weeks and I have shared nary a corner.

Clarion West season is very consuming. There are now parties, weekly readings and all other variations of social engagements in which I get to see friends and make new ones—as well as honk incomprehensible love-words towards writers of whom I am a sick-ass fan. Maureen McHugh, my long-distance crush, materialized into this lovely woman with a gentle, no-bullshit personality and a wicked sense of humor. I did not curl up in her lap, although I wanted to, and remain convinced that she could have totally taken it without freaking out over my needy adoration. Plus, I was lucky enough to sit in on one of her CW classes and get proof-pudding that she the genius that I have lovingly expected her to be.

I was also present during the reception in honor of Octavia E. Butler’s induction into the Science Fiction Hall of Fame, and was blessed into meeting some of her relatives, her whip smart/red headed agent, and other friends and readergellencia.

The beginning of this week found me back to heaven-on-earth (AKA Hedgebrook) to a party in honor of the writers who were honored with this year’s Elizabeth George Foundation Awards. I was one of these honorees, and I was bursting with pride and nervousness and self-doubt. But, between the nourishment of Hedgebrook, Elizabeth George’s quiet, classy, feisty generosity, a rousing round of croquet, the spying of bald eagle fledglings, and some very, very, very wonderful conversation over red wine with Gloria Steinem, I felt wrapped in angel wings of printed paper.

To top this sundae of holy-shitness, I’m taking on as web manager for the SFWA website, creating and implementing a content plan that allows fresh, interesting, relevant, and useful articles, interviews, and reviews go up on the site nearly every day. I’ve spent the past few weeks ramping up. I have pulled back a corner as a place from which to jump, so watch for me pulling my parachute—possibly in your direction—starting this week.

Oh, yeah. I’m also trying to whip some novel pages into order so they can be sent out as partials.

Sometimes, I sleep.

Celebrating Octavia

June 10th, 2010

Of all the writers in the world that I would have liked to have known, Octavia E. Butler tops my list for a hundred different reasons.  I will be in attendance at the Carl Brandon party celebrating her deserved induction into the Hall of Fame. I hope you’ll join me and spread the word.

 

CARL BRANDON SOCIETY CELEBRATES OCTAVIA E. BUTLER’S HALL OF FAME INDUCTION
On Saturday, June 26, the Carl Brandon Society is hosting a party in honor of Octavia E. Butler’s induction into the Science Fiction Hall of Fame. The celebration begins at 8 p.m. at the Lake Union Courtyard Marriott in Seattle. Light refreshments and a no-host bar will be provided.
Octavia E. Butler (1947 – 2006), winner of the MacArthur “Genius” Award and numerous others, was one of the first African American women to gain prominence as a science fiction writer. The Carl Brandon Society, a nonprofit organization, administers the Octavia E. Butler Memorial Scholarship Fund, and supports the representation of people of color in the fantastic genres through programs such as its literary awards and discussion groups. More information is available at www.carlbrandon.org.

 

 

Delete

June 1st, 2010

 

I’ve been staring into the abyss of draft one of the novel—and it’s been staring right back at me (thx, Nietzsche!). I’m losing the staring contest.
One of the most brutal truths of writing is: sometimes you have to throw away every word you’ve spent days/weeks/months stringing together.
I am really bad at this. Some writers have an instinctual peace with this when it happens. They don’t necessarily like it, but have come to terms with the fact that tossing out a lot of work is part of the work.
I’m not one of those writers. Tossing away drafts makes me very uncomfortable.
I wind up going into contortions or having pointless, week-long staring contests with the draft rather than admit that it’s an unsalvageable piece of garbage. I mean, I eventually get there, but then I have another week where I essentially wail and moan about it before I can clear the decks and start again.
And now, it’s time I look away, hit new–>open and start all over again. The novel draft has fundamental problems that can’t be rooted out and fixed with fancy developmental editing. The world has gaping holes and the plot—well, there isn’t much of a plot.
And again, in the end, what I thought was going to interest me about the world of the novel and the characters wound up not being what interested me at all. This other thing, which is, at best, a small mention in the current draft, is the key and the pivot point—and what I think would make this novel worth reading. So, it’s back to some research and then drafting and word count and the beginning.
So, yeah. There goes ~75,000 words, *poof*. And I’m back where I started. A blank page and the irrational itch to tell a captivating story, the fear that I’m not big enough to tell a captivating story and the boundless hope that drives me onward—which can’t be quantified or understood.
OK, Blink.

 

 

Literary spec fic

May 4th, 2010

This all interestingly dovetails with my last post…on March 15 (really? I am that lazy a blogger, apparently).

During my stay at Hedgebrook (post on that TK, I swear), I had the pleasure of being in residence with a group of amazingly rad writers, most of whom were working in literary fiction (with the notable exception of a genius poet working in form and a delightful NF/screenwriter), who, after hearing my work, grilled me tenderly about WTF the difference was these days between literary and SFF–especially since my own work was so obviously informed by what is usually (wrongly, IMHO) considered the concerns of literary fiction over SFF (character, language vs. idea and plot). I, of course, went promising a reading list of SFF that I think effectively (and once and for all) blurs the lines between speculative and literary–which, being me, has slipped until right this freaking minute.

I chose 5, with a bonus “anything by–“ as not to overwhelm. There are many, many books and authors I am leaving off this list (including those that I think have successfully and all on their own, crossed over–Italo Calvino or Kelly Link, for example–or deny highly their involvement–*cough* Margaret Atwood. But these 5 are books that will totally convince you that you do, indeed, love speculative fiction, if you think you don’t or wouldn’t…or don’t know how to start*:
  • The Scar, China Mieville
  • City of Saints & Madmen or Veniss Underground, Jeff VanderMeer
  • The Mount, Carol Emshwiller
  • To Say Nothing of the Dog, Connie Willis
  • Pump Six (stories), Paolo Bacigalupi
  • Bonus! Any collection by John Kessel
*do leave me a comment if you think I have unjustly omitted a “must see,” plz!

 

 

Top 5s

March 15th, 2010

 

Interesting.
Recently, one of my colleagues, the fabulous Douglas Lucas, asked on our class’ email list about our absolutely favorite novels/books of all time, ever.
I thought and thought and thought about it. There are so many books I love, but if I had to commit forever to just five, the list would look something like this:
  • The Waves, Virginia Woolf
  • By Grand Central Station I Sat Down and Wept, Elizabeth Smart
  • Jesus’ Son, Denis Johnson (novel told in short stories)
  • Never Let Me Go, Kazuo Ishiguro
  • The Lover, Marguerite Duras
All highly stylized literary fiction, nary a spec fic title among them. There are so many spec fic books I adore—most recently, The Windup Girl by Paolo Bacigalupi—and many I wind up recommending over and over again (The Scar by China Mieville, Ammonite by Nicola Griffith, Octavia Butler’s Bloodchild, all things John Kessel), and they would have made an appearance if this was a top ten. But…
Yarg. A hard list to write. As I said in my email response to the group,* “I think it’s easier to whittle down my top 5 songs or paintings or brands of eyeliner.”
*yes, indeed, I just quoted myself.

 

 

In which I explain my scarceness

March 7th, 2010

 

I haven’t been updating this much—neither because I’ve forgotten it nor for lack of things going on in life, but mostly because this year has turned into a year of mysteriously rapid personal growth for me. It’s lovely, because in many, many ways, I’ve been stuck in a rut of the soul (or the spirit or the spark or inner life or whatever you’d like to call it), one that lasted since my mid-twenties. After a few years of near-operatic crises, which has urged me firmly onto the grounds of adulthood, it seems to be the time to care for my inner life…plus, start to actually do a few things I have always talked about doing before I die. You know the stuff.
Anyway, most of what’s been going on, I assure you, would be boring as fuck for you to read about—kind of, as if, I started posting long narratives recounting the plot lines of my dreams.
Everyone knows that other people’s dreams are dull; unless *you* are IN them.
Anyway, as for writing stuff, I am floundering around in the dreaded 20k-in novel mess that everyone warns about…when you don’t plot the work beforehand. Which I didn’t.
I refused to, stubbornly—and also because frankly, the pleasure I derive from the actual writing process, which is often painful and absurd, is the discovery process. I learn what something is about as I go—I mean, I have a general sense of character and theme and stuff I want to include, but everything else is fluid.
So. It’s time to break out the index cards and decide where this is going and how I am going to get there.
I’m also pleased to report that, although I don’t seem to be on the website, I’ll be a panel conquering professional at Norwescon this year. I’m hosting the FFS again this year, so come see me in a ridiculous outfit doing geek stand-up, but will also be, throughout the weekend, talking about writing, publishing, and something called “The Blogger as Public Intellectual.”
It’ll be a fun way to try and convince myself I know what I am talking about before I pack off to two weeks of solitude and writing frenzy at Hedgebrook.

 

 

Know what?

February 1st, 2010

I have has a few publications this year that are eligible for Nebula and Hugo nominations, if you were, you know, feeling the spirit.

Also, Brain Harvest is eligible to be nommed for a Hugo semiprozine, and Eden, Shane, and I are ripe for the editors short form category.

Just sayin’. You know. *kicks some gravel*

Gulliver grant

December 10th, 2009

The Speculative Literature Foundation has the 2009 Gulliver Grant press release up:

http://www.speculativeliterature.org/Grants/SLFTravelGrant/TravelGrant2009.php

I’m really excited and very honored. Looks like I was up against some serious competition, just from the announcement of the honorable mentions.

I am going to use the grant to offset expenses to travel from Seattle up to Orcas and Whidbey Islands, and then southwest to Ocean Shores (during various times in February, March, and April 2010)  for research for the book.

Awww!

November 12th, 2009

A super sweet one line review of my mini space opera in BIG OTHER : “Caren Gussoff offers a fine cyberpunk junket in her story “Correspondence.” ” Thanks, John Madera! I love the word “junket.”

I’ve been having a lot of fun lately guest blogging for Jeff VanderMeer while he is on tour. It’s especially cool because the other guest bloggers are so brilliant that they make me seem much smarter just by posting near them.

Also, in odd news, I’ve become one of the Seattle Literary Scene Examiners for Examiner.com. Kind of a random and strange little gig, but becoming pretty awesome. I’m keeping up with this stuff because it’s uh, my life, so I may as well grow some discipline and write about it. I can see wicked potential to pimp my friends and loved ones in here (because you people do such really cool things, anyway). I’m planning on spotlighting Seattle writers and editors weekly, so drop me a line if you are interested in being featured (caren at spitkitten dot com).

The Empire Builder

October 27th, 2009

So, the awesome Eden Robins (co-editor of Brain Harvest) has a story, “The Empire Builder” in Fantasy Magazine’s final three flash-fiction Halloween stories. Readers get to pick their favorite, and I think you’d really love her piece. You can go read it and vote here.